An urban missile

Before you read this entry, click play on this youtube video and enjoy the sounds of Grizzly Bear.  This is a potentially life altering track, do not miss it. This video is of the movie Seven and has nothing to do with the music, aside from the fact that whomever posted this montage on youtube.com thought it went together.  



And now....that you have that playing in the background.... onto urban missiles.........




I don't know how many of you smoke.  Well that's not entirely true.  I know exactly how many of the 4 people that read this blog smoke.  But you don't blog for the blog you have.  You blog for the blog you want ;) 

Since none of you do, you might not know about throwing an atomic missile.  You see smoking turns you into a monster.  A cigarette flicking fire tossing 500 pound gorilla in the room is what you become.  Smoking cigarettes numbs your mind to the fact that they're even on fire.  You soon forget it as the addiction overtakes your common sense.  And after a while you don't even notice what you're smoking around.  Or even care for that matter, in any way. 

So here's how it goes down.  You're smoking on your father's oil rig in Houston Texas....  Two guys who have just been in gigantic oil spills come running on your position.  Without even thinking you throw your cigarette directly at the gentleman and they burst into flames....causing company ending law suits.... 

Ok it never goes down that way.  If it did you might start to care about where you toss your flaming step children.  But for some reason cigarettes, I am human enough to report, never blow stuff up. 

I don't know why they don't, but I have certainly seen enough field tests to know they will not ignite anything.  I have, with wind guided precision, flicked a lit cigarette into a carburetor this morning.  some twenty minutes ago mind you; having yet to hear an explosion.   

I have also flicked my cigarette fire starters into especially dry forests and have yet to cause damage or harm to one.  One time a lit cig fell right out of my mouth onto a wooden casket that I had just personally spilled alcohol on, and.... nothing.  Well not exactly nothing; everyone got to see me run and cover. 

I had a step grandmother who had a fire in her apartment one time when I was a child.  I'm starting to think that the adults in my life just told me a cigarette started the fire, so I wouldn't consider smoking.  

Seriously I have launched so many horrendous urban missiles that my right to smoke should be revoked.  Seriously who smokes near a paper factory on a windy day?  Who has put a cigarette out on his great grandmother's oxygen tank?  Who picks up his hair spray factory girlfriend at work chiefing?  

I do.  The smoker.  The dirty all powerful me. It's disheartening really to see every butt you toss, regardless of aim, end up in a dry leaf pile.   

Big Black Epiphany

If it is my destiny to teach others how to love themselves, my own experience must be what I impart. Being awesome and loving yourself is not just my message, it is also my journey. It’s a path that I can only lead others down once I know the way myself. But I know it’s real, it has to be because I’m not just selling it I am living it.

The therapeutic power of admitting the following information to a wide audience about myself cannot be measured. It is invaluable. You do not have to admit anything to the world, but when you can admit something as equally distressing to yourself as I am about to admit to you, something amazing will happen. You will take action.

Just by admitting or acknowledging to yourself, that you’re very aware what goes on, starts a process. You may not fix what needs to be fixed, but you’ll start to figure out how to do it. When you’re awesome and you love yourself you make yourself submit from exhaustion, to be who you will become. It is going to be one hell of a fight. Round one is honesty. Here is my fight:

For my entire life I have easily become addicted to things. Until recently I thought the term “addictive personality” was kind of cute and not in any way a serious condition. I thought it only applied to alcohol, drugs, and preferences. For the most part I have been aware that I get addicted to things rather quickly. What I have failed to understand is how deep it actually goes.

With my addictive personality there is no bottom. It doesn’t stop it’s just a big black hole. And it’s not just a part of me, it is me. It is me completely. I am a hole, and I am dark and bottomless. And the more that I try and fit inside of me, the larger that hole becomes.

I just thought that having an addictive personality meant that I could get addicted to things easily. Things like cigarettes and chewing gum, and watermelon jolly ranchers. What I now believe to be true about my personality is that all of it is an addiction. My addictive personality is my personality. Everything I am and do is for or at least fueled by an addiction.

When I get a mosquito bite, I scratch it. It feels so good, why wouldn’t I scratch it? And I do not stop scratching, and scratching, and after a while I bleed. The way I treat my mosquito bites could surmise the way I interact with everything.

I am a user, and an abuser. I am quite possibly fake all the way thru to my core. I am a walking talking expanding addiction. I am a two hundred and thirty two pound self deprecating demon.

I think I have just realized my largest problem. And it’s a little scary, but at least I now know what I have to fix. I don’t really know how to fix this problem, because I have been living it for so long. I have 29 years of habits to evaluate and exterminate.

Do I even do what I want to do? Do I even like the things that I crave? Who am I, and why have I been asleep for so long?

I don’t know what your biggest flaw is. You might not either. But I do know until you admit it to yourself you will never truly be in self love. So you’d better figure it out, before you destroy yourself.

Global Warning!

I will never ever pay a carbon tax. I owe my allegiance to the Bill of Rights and the Constitution of the United States and no other entity. A carbon tax is almost as ridiculous as the idea of global warming. And I will tell you why.

Global Warming is a hoax. If you want to know why the globe on a whole has been warming for the past 100 years you need to look to the universe. The Solar System is warming, at exactly the same rate. If our industrialized world is warming at the same rate as the uninhabited space around it, are SUV’s and carbon dioxide really to blame?

There is only one reason that the climate in the Solar System is warming, and we call it the Sun. Every 500 years solar flare activity in the nucleus of the Sun increases. We don’t exactly know why it happens, but you can set your clock to it. During the 1500’s “Global Warming” was happening too.

Carbon is not the problem. Carbon is one of the four building blocks of life! That’s what they really want to tax, is life. We cannot give the power to tax a building block of all life to any government organization. Especially not to a multi-national organization!

Taxing carbon is a slippery slope, and it’s being sold to the people of the industrialized world as a step to save planet Earth. The modern green movement is a sham set up by Eugenicists a long time ago. They do not want to save the planet, they want to enslave it.

And when I say they, I do mean a multi national organization. Call them what you will, “A New World Order” “The Bilderbergs” call them what you will. A Carbon Tax is the first step toward a one world government.

Global Warming has never ever been proved. There are several international proclamations signed by thousands and thousands of Climatologists stating this exact fact. You can find any of them out online if you know how to work a common search engine.

Despite what Al Gore wants you to believe, it’s just not scientific fact. Here is a scientific inconvenient truth however, since Al Gore launched his movie, “An Inconvenient Truth” in 2006 he has earned more than a billion dollars for himself. He sold out to the highest bidder.

Senator Harry Reid has put the Carbon Tax bill on the docket for November 15th. It has already passed in the House of Representatives, and I fear it will narrowly in the Senate too. These could be the last few frail days of what used to be a truly great independent nation.

It may in fact be time to start asking yourself some very important questions about what being an American means to you. What line would the government have to incrementally cross before you did something? I for one am considering ex patriotism. As I fear a pestilence of apathy has already suffocated the possibility of a revolution.

Please Watch this Documentary

This is Alex Jones documentary called "Fall of the Republic: The Presidency of Barack Obama"

Do I believe everything in this documentary is 100% factual? No. I certainly do not, but I think there is plenty in here you should see and disseminate for yourself. Let it swirl around your brain for a while, and draw your own conclusions or research these topics further. Don't just automatically think something is true or false, find out for yourself.